This week has been a roller coaster for me. My neighbor and two of our friends had an impromptu end-of-summer picnic on my back deck and the evening was filled with laughter. Then, only one man came to a meeting I’d scheduled. I now find myself questioning if I am on the right course? (Could His plan be something different for me than what I had envisioned?) I enjoyed a most pleasant cruise on beautiful Lake Superior, and ended the week with a calming first symphony concert of the season. Busier than usual, I found myself wanting to slow down. Having recently retired, wasn’t this supposed to be a LESS active time in my life? (Of course…when I talk with other retirees, they reassure me that things only get busier….) Questioning the overall direction of my choice in social causes has caused me to wonder how I might know for sure if I am on the “right” path.
“You too be patient” says James (5:8). Regrettably, patience has never been one of my virtues. I want what I want when I want it. Yes, that is definitely something I need to work on! But my question remains: How do I know if I am on the right path? The inner roller coaster that I’ve been on recently leaves something to be desired. I keep looking for a sign. I’m afraid, though, that I am missing something that is glaringly obvious, right under my nose. What is it I don’t see? I can’t seem to hear Him.
In Colossians 1, St Paul prays that the Colossians “may be filled with the knowledge of His will in all spiritual wisdom and understanding.” “Set your mind on the things above, not on the things that are on earth.” And later, “…put on a new self,” putting aside evil ways. “…Put on love” and “…do your work heartily, as for the Lord.” Finally, “Devote yourselves to prayer” and “Conduct yourselves with wisdom.”
It is my hope to know His will for me – soon. (A certain amount of patience wouldn’t hurt, either, Lord.)
The Prisoner's Prayer Book 